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LOVE. .. and stress. |'D

Journal Entry: Sat May 10, 2008, 9:57 AM

Mood: Pirate
Listening to: Three Days Grace - Never too late
Reading: some detective storys again. |'D
Watching: Screen? 8D

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morgen ! <3

.. i have been so lazy few weeks now, sry. |'D
and i'm having an horrible stress about everything. @__@ .. i have promised too much pics and characters and rpg games, and i'm now having those fuckin' exams in school. ._____.

eh well.
.. i'm just finishing my trades etc, and hoping that i would get time somewhere. X'D

MY STEPDAD TOOK ME TODAY ON THE RIDE WITH MOTORBIKE. @___@ .. that wind and speed and everything.. it was love. i'm seriously fallen love with that, i want a motorcycle. <3

oh and i stole this tag-thingie from *Mustamamba - she bid everybody to do it ! |'D .. and it looked fun so.. here it is.

THREE NAMES YOU GO BY:
1. ida
2. weenyah
3. weeny

THREE SCREEN NAMES YOU'VE HAD:
1. weenyah
2. yöeläin ( .. )
3. .. and some old shocking names what i won't tell. 8"D

THREE THINGS YOU'VE DONE IN THE LAST 33 MINUTES:
1. drew
2. submitted pics
3. sang ( yeah. |'D )

THREE THINGS YOU LIKE ABOUT YOURSELF:
1. my eyes. 8'D
2. crazyness \../
3. .. self-assurance?

THREE THINGS YOU DISLIKE ABOUT YOURSELF:
1. my face
2. all of my fat
3. my selfishness. >:B

THREE PARTS OF YOUR ORIGINS:
1. my parents divorced |'D
2. .. i was bullied and despised about 9 years 8"D
3. and then i got friends. |D

THREE THINGS YOU'RE AFRAID OF:
1. being left alone
2. being without love
3. .. i'm having a mild claustrophobia, i guess 'cause i'm fat 8"D

THREE THINGS YOU ARE WEARING RIGHT NOW:
1. black jeans 8"D
2. black t-shirt
3. BLACK 'n' WHITE STRIPED SOCKS, HELL YEAH <3

THREE OF YOUR EVERYDAY ESSENTIALS:
1. thinking
2. sleeping
3. listening to music

THREE IMPORTANT OBJECTS:
1. bracelet, which includes a little lock and key
2. computer ( my friends in net <3 )
3. COPICS

THREE OF YOUR FAVORITE BANDS:
1. linkin park
2. three days grace
3. sum41

THREE WAYS TO BE HAPPY:
1. being perverted! <3
2. quality time with friends !
3. .. lmao, i won't tell why i'm always so happyhappy >8D

THREE OF YOUR FAVORITE SONGS AT PRESENT:
1. sum41 - we're all to blame
2. three days grace - never too late
3. cmx / 51koodia / kotiteollisuus - vapaus johtaa kansaa

THREE NEW THINGS YOU WANT TO TRY IN THE NEXT 12 MONTHS:
1. cosplay ! <3 ( in animecon djgfsk )
2. "raping" some new guys? >8D
3. swimmin' at the night ( mean at the night night, like.. 2 am? )

THREE THINGS YOU REGRET:
1. being selfish
2. being defenceless
3. .. oh, there are many of them. .. too many.

THREE THINGS YOU WANT IN A RELATIONSHIP:
1. love and caring
2. trust
3. loyalty

THREE IMPORTANT THINGS YOU'VE GIVING TO THE WORLD:
1. ALWAYS MOVING CRAZY GUY \../
2. whinings about my life |'D
3. horrible singing voice. >8D

TWO TRUTHS AND A LIE (in order):
1. i started today changin' some of my opinions
2. i want a motorbike. <3
3. i liked those practices with condoms and carrots in health educations lesson ( .. )

THREE PHYSICAL THINGS YOU LIKE IN THE OPPOSITE SEX:
1. back ( 8"D )
2. neck <3
3. .. hair? >8D

THREE EMOTIONAL THINGS YOU LIKE IN THE OPPOSITE SEX:
1. honesty
2. ability to appreciate the personality, not the looks
3. ability to have fun and understand my humour ( X'D )

THREE THINGS YOU JUST CAN'T DO:
1. fly, even that i would really love to.
2. lie about serious things
3. kill - except bugs.

THREE THINGS YOU MISS FROM YOUR PAST:
1. ability to feel things so strong. </3
2. .. those several visits to my dad ( i go there nowadays like twice in year )
3. .. nothing moar. o--o

THREE GIFTS YOU WOULD LIKE TO RECEIVE:
1. art from people <3
2. handmade thingies~~
3. money. |'D i need it for everything. @__@

THREE REASONS WHY YOU ARE WHO YOU ARE:
1. i was bullied about 9 years~
2. my friends and family
3. .. dunno.

THREE OF YOU YOUR FAVOURITE HOBBIES:
1. drawing
2. dancing and singing lmao. |'D
3. having pervert fun? 8'D

THREE THINGS YOU WANT TO DO REALLY BADLY RIGHT NOW:
1. get some loving kindness. ;;----;;
2. finish some things BUT I'M TOO LAZY
3. draw?

THREE CAREERS YOU'RE CONSIDERING:
1. .. something that involves art.? o_o
2. I WOULD LIKE TO WRITE A BOOK.
3. i dunno. D8

THREE PLACES YOU WANT TO GO FOR HOLIDAY:
1. TAMPERE. absolutely. i want to meet my internet friends~~ <3
2. ainmecoonn. @__@
3. to provinssirock. but i cant. fuck.

THREE CARTOON CHARACTERS:
1. NEMO! 8D
2. ..
3. ihh almost every anime and animation characters are love ! <3

THREE BOY’S NAMES:
1. daniel
2. jouni
3. markku

THREE GIRL'S NAMES:
1. emmi
2. ada
3. viveka

THREE THINGS YOU WANT TO DO BEFORE YOU DIE:
1. get and give some love.
2. try skydicing <3
3. SEX YEAH. .. eh? >8'D

THREE PEOPLE WHO HAVE TO TAKE THIS QUIZ OR DIE PAINFULLY
1. ~Ficasahn ihhihi~ be a nice wife and do this, mm'kay? -n__n-
2. *Diiri sorry darling >8D
3. ~Wican muahha i'll rape you if you don't do this. >83}}

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spring, spring <3

Journal Entry: Sat Apr 5, 2008, 12:33 PM

Mood: Passionate
Listening to: ~ I Write Sins Not Tragedies
Reading: The Lord of the Rings
Watching: screen. |'D
Drinking: FANTA!!1!!1 8DDD <3

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my spring has begun <3

i found the first flower of the spring in last week, it totally stopped me when i was riding by my bike to home from school. it was so yellow and pretty, it was coltsfoot which is not the most beautiful flower, but it's the first flower here in finland. <3 so, it really cheered my day up.
and then, couple of days later, i saw a first butterfly too. <3 it was small, but pretty. -n____n- i was then outside, without my coat - so my spring really started with those three things. 8D

.. not really me, you think? XD
but i'm having my feminine and fine side, too. u___ú
. .

u remember, that i got tagged?
well, tagged me too. XD so now she, and has tagged me. |'D
~ ..here are now 24 facts. 8'D

The rules:

I Post all the rules.
II Write eight things about yourself.
III Post these things into your journal.
IV Tag eight other people.
V Visit their journals so that they have no excuse not to do it.

The facts ( that you didn't know about me. >8D ):

1. Weenyah has two families.
2. Weenyah talks to herself now and then. XD
3. Weenyah looks older than she actually is.
4. Weenyah loves hugging <3
5. Weenyah was rich ( XD ), but now she is poor.
6. Weenyah acts.. a different way than the normal people. X'D
7. Weenyah can swing her ears. 8'D
8. Weenyah can bite. >3

1. Weenyah is uncertain about her life.
2. Weenyah wanna a person, who could really give her some fondness ;_; <3
3. Weenyah loves two of her friends especially~ <3
4. Weenyah needs money. >8B
5. Weenyah loves to "rape" her frends. XD ( not really.. XDD )
6. Weenyah has a msn-fear. ,___.
7. Weenyah says always "Morning!" when she meet people.
8. Weenyah wants black and white roses on her grave. |'D

1. Weenyah is what she is; and she don't want to act somebody else. She is proud of that she can be herself.
2. Weenyah wants a dog. ;-;
3. Weenyah love to meet her internet friends <3
4. Weenyah's mother don't like that ^. u___u
5. Weenyah has sometimes difficults in communicating.. |D
6. Weenyah has muscles in her nose. >8D
7. Weenyah was bullied about 9 years.~
8. Weenyah is always movin'. 8DD

I tag!

Done her journal

Done her journal

Done her journal

.. still waiting you, for doing your journals >8D}

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mudkipz, HERE 'N' THERE! 8'D

Journal Entry: Tue Apr 1, 2008, 8:44 AM

Mood: Lmao
Listening to: Imogen Heap ~ Hide and Seek
Reading: The Lord of the Rings
Watching: mudkips <3
Drinking: water. u__u .. ( gimmee fanta ;-; )

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so i herd u liek mudkips??

zomg! 8D
.. when i visited quickly here earlier, i was first like " oh my gosh, has somebody logged in my account? " D8
and then i realised, that everybody else's having the same avatar, too. XD

. it's kinda fun, those are cute <3

.. but at the same time they're irritating .. u____u'
we had fun ( me 'n' my friends ) because of those lil guys. |'D

i don't have enough time. ;-;
i'm having so much to do, lfhaskd D8
.. but i'm now gonna finish my trades, be patient peeple~ <3

nothing else? o-o
well, my kiriban is coming closer and closer.. C'8
and i'll still draw for that, whoo catch it. -n__n-}}

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* cough *

Journal Entry: Thu Mar 20, 2008, 10:48 AM

Mood: High
Listening to: Skillet ~ You're Better Than Drugs
Watching: Screen..? XD
Eating: drugs. |'D
Drinking: TEA! 8DD

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zuh. 8D
.. i'm sick. C:

yea, i've been a very healthy child. i guess that the last time when i was sick was about six years ago. XD
being sick isn't fun. ;__; and i don't like drugs. .o. * having too many of them *
i have 38 degrees fever, cough, throatache and my nose drips. great. |D

but well, i had really fun last week. <3
i was in a spa.! 8D and i was like a raisin after three days in water. XD
and i kidnapped a ball from there. >8D .. don't ask, long story.

the spa was in Nokia, near Tampere ( citys in Finland ) and at Saturday, after that when we had gave up our hotelroom, we went to Tampere's centre and i bought 16 copics~ <3 and couple of weeks ago my grandma visited in Helsinki ( capital of Finland ) and bought 15 copics for me. 8D
so i have now 104 copics! n_______n * dances * hii~ <3

and the last thing, my kiriban is soon again.! 8o
zomg. o-o but yea, if you catch up my 4000 pageviews, i'll draw something for you~ -n____n-

see ya, darlings.! <3}

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numb

Journal Entry: Fri Feb 29, 2008, 10:01 AM

Mood: Hopeless
Listening to: Linkin Park ~ Numb

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warning. angsty stuff.
i don't like to angst in my journals.. but now i think that i will scream if i'm not gonna tell this somewhere.

so, where should i start.?
.. i have felt now about three years a little bit.. unfeeling? i don't mean, that i wouldn't care about people.. i just don't feel love, sad or angry so strongly that i did when i was younger. it started when i was 11 - maybe beacuse of puberty, maybe because i hadn't reason to live. who knows. i hardly had a one person, who talked to me. my mother shouted me all the time. so.. i'm still unfeeling. what's wrong with me, or is this normal? cause if it is i don't wanna grow up.
fortunately i still feel some feelings strong.

and i'm uncertain of my life. of everything.
i think, that when i was so long without friends.. i can't still believe, that ia have 'em. so i'm sorry, if i'm sometimes "baggy" - i feel, that if i don't hold my most dearest friends tight, they will vanish.

i guess i'm lonely, even that i have people around me.
i'm lonely, if i can't hold someone.
i can't fall asleep very well.. cause every night i scream in my mind, that someone could be there, near me.
when i was one day on my one most precious friend's home, we had fun - and when we just lied on her bed side by side, i said "caress me.. please" she looked me surprised and answered, " i can't?" and i said " please, try". and she caressed me. and i felt so warm and safe. but that was just an one moment.

now i had had couple of days.. pain in my chest. no, i'm not having a heart attack or something. it's like mental pain. and it feels horrible.
and when a car almost drove over me couple of months ago.. i have taught sometimes, when i'm alone, what would have happened, if that car had really drove over me? would people be just couple of days sad.. and then go on? i don't want, that people would be sad because of me. but would they remember me? or am i just a meaningless..?

i need communication.
almost everyone of my dear friends was on "busy" mood in msn, and i didn't want to disturb them.
i'm stupid. but i feel so tired of everything.. maybe i don't want to call anybody, cause i'm afraid that i would explain just my own miserable, little problems. and i'm afraid, that one of my best friends.. isn't my best friend. she didn't want to tal me today.

i guess that i need a meaning to my life.

sry for this angsty stuff, you can ignore this journal - i promise i won't write many of this kind of journals. .___.

well.. more bad news.
i haven't been able to get to Steel Blood RPG for two months! ;o;
this has happened to me before, but now i can't do anything to it. i'm so sorry, that i haven't answered to the games, but i really can't log in. ;;---;;
so.. all the player in SB, who are here in deviantART, if you don't wanna wait more you're free to get your characters out of the games - iäm not gonna be angry.! o-o
i just hate that i can't get in the forum. -_____-'

and well.. even something good - those copics, which i ordered from local art-equipment shop in December, came yesterday and i went to pick up them today.
but they said, that they would come in a week, and i had to wait 77 days - that's like eleven weeks.! D8
and i noticed, that on those twenty copics were fifteen copics, what i had already. -_________________-

..sorry, complaining again. ,_______.'

.. i just had a bad day, i guess.}